day 3....and 4 and 5....and 6

Well if we want to get technical, this is also day 7, but whatever. So i was soooo happy to hear that my best friend and my love DOES still love me and she says she will at the end of these 40 days. the only thing is, when i ask her, she seems hesitant about it, like she is not too sure. that scares me a little, because i think they believe that we will just go away, and never come back together. because you see, they now think we are hormone drivin teenagers, and we are just together because we like the sex. but what they don't understand, is there is way more than that. i certainly believe so, and i hope she does too. but if it was just for the sex, i would not be writing this blog right now. i hope that one day, she will read our facebook thread and see what i have put on to this small blog. i hope she does. i just want to know that she will love me no matter what. i know her parents want her to never see me again, but i have a plan. i might say it, but for right now, im a little tired and i dont feel like writing so much this evening. instead, lets talk about odyssey.

i hope that she will like the show. its super hard, and thus its a little dirty. to me, im afraid that people will hear it and lose respect for me, or maybe its just my ears have gotten a lot better since i have left high school. i hope its the second, i really do. my uniform is pretty sweet. its black pants and a red shirt, but much more complex than that. its hard to describe, but it fits the show, so i like it. i hope....oh how do i say this without sounding creepy...im just going to say it. i hope she sees the show, and then she like (KEY WORD THERE IS LIKE) worships me because she thinks i look sooo good/she knows that she loves him and i love her. i hope she knows about all of the hard word that i put into this show and that it pays off when i hear her say at the truck after finals (wink wink, you can't miss it, its big and white..... ;) tehe) and just say "that was amazing. i can't believe i know you much less the fact that we are in love right now" oh, bad news must come now

Spirit called and begged me to do it. They offered a vibe and maybe a marimba spot, and and i think im going to do it. right now, she is either a)proud that i am following my dream or b)sad that we get to hand out in the summer or c)both. im going to guess c, but here is my logic behind doing corps this summer. i will (hopefully) have many summers with her, but i only have 3 left for corps. i love her, and i hope that she knows that she is always on my mind. but i also have to think about my future. corps looks good on a resume, and i will have a little bit of the end of the summer to hang out with her. plus, that should be more pride to her for the fact that she is dating a man in corps (because a man in a uniform is always hot). but there is another option. she could take a break for the summer if she wanted to. i would understand, because women like attention just above chocolate and teddy bears. its the truth. and a whole summer without a guy there to hang out would be pretty hard on her. i couldnt call everyday for hours on end, i couldnt really contact her much at all. (maybe a few texts a day, but that would be it). its hard for me to say, but i do believe that this decision is for the best. but i hope whoever is reading this will reply. just get a blog, its free. and please comment, i would like to know the feedback of what my writing is coming across like.

well thats all for now. talk to you soon.

chris parker

p.s. i love you