day 27 and 28

so i am really sorry, but college is getting really busy so i am having trouble getting all of my writing in. i will try to make this a long one since SHE always writes wonderful entries (stupid over achiever. love you). basically, college is this crazy idea that they will throw SO much information at you, you just have to retain some of it. not neccessarily all of it, but at least some of it. so when the music program excpects you to know about 300% more than your average college kid, your head very well might expload. so many people quit within the first year, its like not even funny. It's some hard shit that I have to go through to get a job that will pay little to nothing. basically, i know i won't be the one "bringing home the bacon". that's where hopefully she will come in to play. i have been thinking about the future a lot more now then i have been in a while. i used to be afraid of it, you know, having to actually work every day and having to be responsible for EVERYTHING and getting old and such, but with her in my life, i know its not going to be a big deal anymore. i actually enjoy thinking about how our lives are going to play out, because i know that we will be together no matter what goes down. all im worried about is what she decides to do about school. honestly, i would love for her to come to tennessee tech, since its awesome and such. she doesnt believe me, and i can understand that. people always underappreciate this school, but we get more jobs than "the other tennessee school" and our teachers here are like the best around. but then i heard she wants to go to clemson. CLEMSON?!?!?!?! thats in south carolina. that means we would have to wait at least 6 years to really be together, because i have a feeling if i get a job, it won't be in south carolina. but then again, who am i to say what she can and can't do. whenever i was making my college decision, she never pressured me to go to UT or something like that, so why should i pressure her to go to tennessee tech. i just hope that she thinks about all the variables when it comes to college, even the small one about me and her. if she wants this to work and she wants to get married quickly and start becoming the baby making machine (and don't lie to yourself, you know you want to start as soon as you can), then maybe she should think about a tennessee school. well, i better go, im technically in my english class chilling on the computer, so i will write to you later.

chris parker

p.s. i love you