a new way of thinking

after the incident with the devil (thank you gracie collins), things went from neck high in shit, to 10 feet above our heads in shit. this is too much. (side note: my drumming friend nick says hi) She can't handle it, and i dont blame her. So i propose a new way of thinking. What i was trying to do with mary is be like a horse with blinders: just mary, all the time, going to go with no one but her. But all the events taking place are making me realize that my way of thinking is hurting her. because im doing this, she feels obligated to make me a big role in her life. but im suppose to play no role in her life right now, according to her mother. we both know that i will always play a role in her life, and she will always play on in mine. Thanks to our pasts, that is inveitable, but i want her in my future as well. I hope she would want me in her future, but here is what i suggest for us right now.

Just instead of being a horse with blinders, be a member of the marching band. Your head is towards the drum major, but your always looking around constantly to get in forms and such. so like, i want to marry her, but im not going to push for it. im just going to wait. i might see another girl along the way. i might try dating her, but im always going to want mary. i dont want to say bounce back girl, but almost like that. time heals everything, and i believe that eventually, your mother will have to forgive me, and on that day, we can be friends again. and hell, if we are not past that phase in our lives, we can date again. i want you to know that you have played a very important role in my life. i will always find you incredibly attractive, and just a wonderful person and an exceptional girlfriend. your my absolute best friend, but right now, you just need to be my blog buddy. i will never forget you, and i hope you never forget me. i dont want this to sound like the end, but instead a new way of thinking. i dont want to stop talking or seeing you, or hell even liking you. but i want to take the pressure off you. until your parents calm down, you will be in control of the talking to me and seeing me (if ever) and such. i hope that your feelings for me dont change, though im not suggesting that you attach on to me in such a dangerous way that your parents will never forgive me. hold on baby, but loosely.

finally, last order of business. my tech friends looked at me this morning and said "aurora chris? really?" they figured it out because of the mutual friends and such, and they gave me this suggestion. I can create a profile for you of a "new studio member", all the guys in the studio will be friends with this person and i can get the music building to be friends with this person. i can give you the password, and we can talk that way on facebook. Now i dont know the exact facebook rules you have, so i dont know if you can actually do this. yet again, i dont want to force you to do this, i am simply throwing out a suggestion. i hope that you like my new way of thinking, and i wish you and colby the best of luck. post back your thoughts and comments about my idea.

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chris parker